Keep moving

Through the pain she looks up and smiles as if there is nothing wrong. “Just keep moving” she keeps telling herself. Once stopped it’s impossible to get going again. This was the mindset that got her through grade school, pushed her through graduation, got her through working long hours until she had enough money to move off her friends couch. It’s what saved her life and reminded her why she must keep living. The strength it takes to carry a baby inside you alone and then destroy your body to push it out. Turn around work two jobs to feed her and keep her safe. Never sleeping because she always cries. Knowing that the hard you fight the harder you will fall so you do your best not to fall. Only we always fall… Its loving a man so much it destroys you. Because trying to make him see you And respect you the way you know in your bones you should be is enough to make someone crazy. But then he goes ahhha she is crazy!!! And then tries to take her babies away. Numb is the only way to live when you can’t kiss tiny fingers and toes and make bad dreams go away. When realizing that thing your forgetting is breakfast only there is no little ones to feed. Just keep moving, because once stopped it’s impossible to Get them back. You do anything you can do And one day there they are… over my dead body do you take them again. I will endure the pain And bruises from loving him and trusting him. You can’t hit me hard enough. But they won’t know that life. So I keep moving to protect them from the life that made them. And hope to one day have the chance to stop moving and love long enough to not have to get up and go again.

Km